I was spending time with Hayden yesterday and was having just so much fun with her. As I started to get her ready for bedtime, I playfully dressed her in her PJs and began to just admire her. I started to tell her things like, "you're beautiful," "you're so precious," "I love you more than you will ever know." All the while, Hayden just stared and continued giggling and playing along.
I just thought to myself, "goodness, she's perfect just the way she is." And just as quickly as those thoughts overcame my mind, I began to think about the things that would overcome her mind as she would get older. I thought about things that she would be insecure about, things she wouldn't like about herself, and ways that she would maybe feel she wasn't good enough. Tears started to well up in my eyes, and I instantly looked to Richard and said, "she has NOTHING to be insecure of!" And while it's easier for me to know that, I know that sure wasn't the case for me as a teen or even for me today.
God immediately brought me to His word which unfortunately at times may have lost it's weight, but we are "fearfully and wonderfully made." Our Father made us purposely and exactly how He wanted us to be. He longs for us to be utterly SECURE and satisfied in how He sees us. It is because we are made in His image that we should walk in a confidence like no other.
Why do feelings of insecurity creep up into my head? Who or what have I held up as the standard of beauty? Who made that the standard anyway? As hard as it is not to look to the left and look to the right to compare ourselves to what "beauty" is, I'm reminded that those standards aren't true and should hold no weight. Last night will be one that I will always remember. That for a moment I was able to see Hayden and understand how God sees me, and I pray I wouldn't forget it.
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